Poetry and Prose by #1 Amazon Bestselling Author of Nature Speaks of Love and Sorrow, Co-Author of #1 Amazon Bestseller, Wounds I Healed: The Poetry of Strong Women, and Jan/Feb 2022 Spillwords Press Author of the Month
My father a talisman of probability and of broken hope, found underneath a staircase drunk on October rain.
A teacher who left probability aside in favor of developing brokenness into the night โ he fashioned emotions into sleeves of tears held at bay a dam no one wants to make.
It is a skill learned out of survival when we feel like a mistake, and a burden to life and to an imagined view staring back at me in the mirror โ You.
Recently I sent two poems to Rust & Moth, an amazing online poetry journal. While both were rejected, it reminded me that acceptance lives inside rejection, and is part of the writing process. It also reminded me to continue to pursue new topics and feelings in my writing. October Rain is a poem that explores both of these.
White-tipped Waves, by C.X. Turner
cradling the light I didnโt ever hope to find you
wave after wave breaking down
retreating with the tide
awash with past mistakes in an ocean of loss
love came to remind me take me with you but let me go
I contemplate the seasons you and I went through
find myself inland on foreign soil alone yet not lonely
discover peaceful opportunities to carry light however deep the fight
I am not jealous of the rocks that dwell deep in the ocean bed they have nothing to covet; nothing to look forward to (scoff) but for sore backs from laying stiff under kelp beds in seagrassโ as threshing sea-doormats โ and perhaps of sand in their eyes but I suppose Iโm predisposed to how heavy its shoulders must be when my avant-garde gauge is the emptiness I suffer after yet one more mate left my bed I met a starfish at the shore the other day when my shoulders were laden with pity and boy, was I surprised with the story she shared! she named a rock in the intertidal zone that dreamed about being a rock in Mt. Everest where heโd lay under a female Juniper tree in the forested zone, no less, to wait for Juniper to drop him her berry-cones
โDonโt ask,โ the pink starfish exclaimed, rolling her eyes before she continued, โbut he is lots of fun and such a loving rock; everyone respects himโ we hope to keep him grounded and curious. We cannot make him change, but we can make him grow aware of his unrealistic expectations,โ she said, and then she left with the tide shouting I-donโt-know-what at me and that sheโd write her rock a love poem How curious, thought I of the soliloquy that even rocks have dreams to profess curious-er still about the rockโs recklessness to plant ideas into the heads of sea stars Is that what lifeโs like at the bottom of the sea?
Today I met a rearing Adรฉlie penguin pair hit with a dire dearth of rocks to stealโ they have their eyes on the stones at the bottom of the oceanic crust but by golly, those are unwieldy and immerse too deep to even try โWeโre the pebble poachers in these lands,โ the female told me, โwith brave dreams of getting our hands on those stones.โ โStones that just lay on sea bedsโ doing nothing,โ offered the male. Then, just as they came, they ran off to write each other love poems. I nodded, supposing I understood their plight. Is it thievery when this couple could put those rocks to good useโ and grant the rocks a purpose to be? All for the sake of their offspring?
As I trudged home, my shoulders felt lighter I didnโt know I didnโt knowโ but now I know! Thinking hard about being jinxed by getting the feted short end of the stick in life which amounts to not having someone to cohabit my bed with at night Is my qualm due to quixotic expectations? Do I need more lessons from the sea? Perchance now Iโm more ready to give it one more try Iโll start today by writing to myself a love poem.
Gift From The Sea was inspired by the poem Oceanโs Rocks. You can read more of Selmaโs poetry atSelma.
I am sharing one more collaborative response poem tomorrow morning, and then will post one of my poetic responses each day the rest of next week, which will make 30 days in a row of poetry for the Nature Speaks of Love and Sorrow: 30 Poems in 30 Days Collaboration.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart to all of the amazing poets that participated in this collaboration, and to all of you for being here, reading, liking, and commenting on the posts. Itโs been so much fun!
Stay tuned to this blog for a Nature Speaks of Love and Sorrow: 30 Poems in 30 Days Collaboration wrap-up post, and for details about my next initiative, by monthโs end.Thank you.