I love youโ€ฆ

heart broken into a million pieces,
agony inside, the time in-between
now and then, set aside

for a moment, like an eternity, dreaming
of other scenes, canโ€™t possibly be reality, pulling
me down into this demiseโ€ฆ

watching your hand leave mine, fingers outstretched
into another time, breaking solidity,
besides

the filament continues to flicker, wavering
in the night sky, pulling me towards belief, I
sighโ€ฆ

remembering your face, holding you in arms, wide,
trying to make another sky

and portal to an alternative world, where the two
remain together, not ever bidding each other
adieuโ€ฆ

instead, remain together they do,
by simply saying

I love youโ€ฆ


Photo by Noel_Bauza, Pixabay


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a love gleanedโ€ฆ

tiredness is present, like a gift from the heavens,
head in the clouds, I dream of the absence
found

in-between the margins of peace, tranquility, and
the pain bound

together

like dreams come to me, instead of sleep,
filling the space with images profoundโ€ฆ

listening to my heart first, becomes
the knowledge bestowed, controlled, not,

instead,
the loud drum,
and thrum,
vibrations
come

towards the vistas trees, in need of sanity, destabilizing
the wishes seen, and, providing us all with a
love gleanedโ€ฆ


Photo by MarPockStudios, Pixabay


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underneath my skinโ€ฆ

as fingers caress the tree,
there is glory seen, as the feelings beneath,
keep coming for me

one, after another, they try, me,
to
set freeโ€ฆ
and I resist, more common
persist

running against the grain, terror scratched skin,
gritting teeth, pain from within

arises again, and
againโ€ฆas

the
wind breathesโ€ฆand, I

relax back into the flowerbed, smelling the roses
red

I take ease, notice the bees, relate my love for them,
not
too late

to grow roots straight into the earth, becoming
one with the soil, and the beauty enveloping me,
I roil, as

pain subsides, and I continue to surmise
my love of this beautiful planet, felt beneath,
within, and underneath my skinโ€ฆ


Photo by qkcreativity92, Pixabay


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the dream tree…

the veins of the earth pour
through me, as I sit quietly, contemplating
the tree, me, and all I seeโ€ฆ

โ€ฆI wonder if this life is really meant to be,
or, if the me I see, is simply a reflection
of the dream treeโ€ฆ

cascading light reflects off the tree, and
I gather up memories bound underneath the sea,
and wish for another reality

where pain and pleasure go together,
like twins, conjoined in a love so tender,
kind, and altogether

reminiscent

of the mystery,
weโ€™ve spent our lives trying to out figureโ€ฆ


Photo by Bessi, from Pixabay


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towards the light of another dayโ€ฆ

I skip over puddles, one, two, three,
in the mirror images, I see, you
refracted back at meโ€ฆ

always loving and kind, despite the pain
sitting on the surface
of our contoured purpose,
reaching deep within,
looking amongst the worn out travelers, sin

arises, seems raw, and depletes me againโ€ฆ

tired, and tortured, I look to the earthโ€™s very nature, for a sense of purpose

realizing
the feelings, and thoughts, go against the grain

like the trees, bare, and scorched of their outer skins, while flayed and portrayed

in the myriad contexts,
where love is at the center, not grim,
more compassionate, to the travelers
making their way

towards the light of another dayโ€ฆ


Photo by distelAPPArath from Pixabay


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a magical black hole

Pixabay

a dream,
mind conjures, as
intuition blossoms, and
reflects upon
conditioned aspects
of time borrowedโ€ฆ

harsh

as they seem
we grew through
the pain and agonyโ€ฆ

trials and tribulations
abound, as we recount
each moment, and, at times, drown

in the feelings
swallowing us whole,
like a magical black holeโ€ฆ.

spinning vortex,
light withdrawn,
senses expand, reaching
out for a hand

to hold onto at lastโ€ฆ

breathing in lifeโ€™s energy,
we wrestle with time,
and the nature
of the agonies
written upon
the sands
of our collective destiniesโ€ฆas

light shows back up,
speaking in the language
of love lost, pain healed, and
compassion given out, to all those that shout,
curse at the skies, and wonder whyโ€ฆ

as deep inside,
we recognize our face
in the collection of pictures
we see in the mirror

of our humanity,
as we (re)adjust within
and get ready to again beginโ€ฆ


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something altogether unbelievable, Published at MasticadoresUSA

Photo by Quinton Coetzee on Unsplash

I am so pleased to announce that my poem, something altogether unbelievable, is now available at MasticadoresUSA. A big thank you to, Gabriela Marie Milton, and the team at MasticadoresUSA for their continued support, and for publishing this piece.

something altogether unbelievable

the iridescent
lamp
casts a shadow
over the carnage
seen, within the myriad
of moments
taken away from meโ€ฆ

I would be honored if you would go here and read the rest of my poem. Thank you!


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Shining Heart

Photo by Erik Witsoe on Unsplash

watching life
move by, disengaged
as it rattles around
in my brain
without significance
or a way to rebound

detached
from reality,
like a kite that loses
itโ€™s tether,
and flies off into
space with nary a
tarry nor a sound,
not heard, and never found

reflective processes
go unnoticed,
buried deep in
the heart, without
a tool to unearth
the myriad of possibilities
that live for a rebirth

then,

a shift
in consciousness
comes calling,
releasing the pain
a little at a time

and,

new tools
are brought forth,
provided by people
just like
you and me,
whoโ€™ve already
dug deep
removing the layers
of debris,
shining heart
we can now see


Utmost Feelings โ€“ Just Released!

If youโ€™ve not yet checked out Asthaโ€™s Anthology, Utmost Feelings, well, you can now order it online. Hereโ€™s where you can find it:

Paperback-

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we wave goodbye

Photo by Aaron Burden on Unsplash

the tree sways
in the wind,
just as the life
we live comes to
bear on all our sins

past mistakes,
felt deep within,
often shunned,
in favor of a wide-
eyed grin

hiding the story
weโ€™ve kept
bottled up,
and locked tight
away
from imaginings
of another day

we dig deep
into those fields
of amber,
and recollected
memories
of all our patterns

excavating them
one at a time,
we relish each moment,
even though,
we are present
to the pain conveyed

radiating from
the center,
shuttering, and
quaking from all
our errors

splitting time
in two,
past
meets present
in a dance of
healing, and
a whole lot of feeling

calmly,
we breathe
through the pain,
and realize
itโ€™s just another day

one at a time,
now,
we prepare
ourselves
for a lullaby,
and to our
dismay, we
wave
goodbye


Utmost Feelings โ€“ Just Released!

If youโ€™ve not yet checked out Asthaโ€™s Anthology, Utmost Feelings, well, you can now order it online. Hereโ€™s where you can find it:

Paperback-

Amazon US: https://www.amazon.com/dp/9390817455

Amazon UK: https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/9390817455

Amazon DE: https://www.amazon.de/dp/9390817455

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Amazon IT: https://www.amazon.it/dp/9390817455

Amazon JP: https://www.amazon.co.jp/dp/9390817455

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Ebook

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A Collective Magnitude

Photo by Daniel Olah on Unsplash

Fingers clutching,
gripping, and
ripping
at the pain,
tearing away, yet,
another piece of me
from the fray.

As they walk
along the edges
of my pain, I,
at times feel dismay, and
a growing sense of tame,
which was once only known
to me as shame.

I can taste the bitterness
of the pain endured,
and taught to me and you,
yet, for now, let us refrain.

We all learn to walk once,
and as age progresses, we
may learn to again
walk through
that door of obsessions.

A door once closed,
becomes a profound
sense of renewal,
just as a key lost
and now found,
opened the door

once more.

Heart fit the lock
just right, and
what came walking through,
sent me into
a love so cavernous,
itโ€™s all one can do
to simply
become ravenous
.

Filling oneself
on lifeโ€™s love,
jubilant and triumphant, and
all the while

humbled by gratitude
of a collective magnitude.


Utmost Feelings โ€“ Coming Soon!

If youโ€™ve not yet checked out Asthaโ€™s Anthology, Utmost Feelings, please check it out when you have a chance, and share as you are able. Thank you.

Additionally, the coauthors of Asthaโ€™s Anthology, Utmost Feelings, are creating a space for people to send their sentiments to Asthaโ€™s family.

If you are interested, please add your sentiments to this form, thank you, and stay blessed.

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